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Shattered

25 Jul

A piece of broken glass
That is all that’s left
As my body shattered into a million pieces
While my soul bled out
Weary and weakened

By the lies
By the egos
By the broken trust
By the burning sorrow

Where do I go now
What do I do now
These chains seem to cling on
They seem to know where I am 
And tag along

Loneliness
It feels so loud
No longer limited to 
Being a background sound

I’m tired. Of giving my heart and my trust out only for it to be thrown in my face. When a sorry is all it takes, sealed by a sad embrace. Tired of these lies.
ANGRY at the way it is.

Grateful for the Angels that God surrounds me with. 

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Much Love from my shattered heart,
V

Beginnings

31 Dec

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I feel myself floating,

A change is in the air,

Is a flower blooming?

I hear the song of nature,

She is infinitely soothing. 

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It has been a year of personal growth,

Of Dark Sides and Mistakes,

And forgotten oaths,

Of Trust and Regaining Faith,

Of Love and Truth,

And making it right, before its too late. 

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It was a process,

Breaking Free from chains in my mind,

I still bear the bleeding scars,

They burst open from time to time.

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We shall see for now,

Where this story goes,

What the future holds,

No one really knows.

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The time is at hand, 

Chin up, I stand,

I have my faith,

These past experiences I will try not to waste. 

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Happy New Year to you, dear reader.

Where ever you are and whatever you have gone through this past year in 2014, be it good or bad, trust that everything happens for a reason and you’re a champion for having gone through it.

I wish you a beautiful fresh new start and a blessed 2015 filled with Love, Joy, Health and Good Food.

Much Love,

V

Behind the Shadows

14 Dec

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It is silent, a supposed friend in the shadows.

Darkness disguised by light.

It lurks behind the curtain, surfacing ever so often to make sure it’s grip around my heart and mind is still exists. It squeezes a little, feeling my breath shorten, my nerves pulsate, my lungs struggle to live…to survive another day.

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“I’m still here, my love. Forever and always I am a part of you.”

“No, you are but a demon in disguise. A shadow of my past. Goodbye.”

“I . WILL . NEVER . LEAVE”

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I fall down again.

Down this tunnel of self-deprecation. Of pain. Of hate.

Of trying to pull myself to the surface but failing.

Of trying to break free of this whirlpool of shadows that clings on and pulls.

It happens time and time again.

I am so tired.

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“Be beautiful. Cover up.”

“Speak your mind. Do not be out of line.”

“Family before friends. Friends before family.”

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Enough. Please.

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I feel like I am always in the wrong. Always.

There is never something right that I am doing.

Positivity is a lie. Beauty is a lie. I am my name. Illusion.

I am dying inside. Innocence lost. Time running out.

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Poison.

Poisonous words engulfed in love running through my veins.

“Do not take this to heart. You may hate me. Think about it.”

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Obligations. Truth. Half-lies. Disguises. Smiles.
Thoughts. Expectations. Love. Success. Failure. Tears.

I am far from perfect. This I know.

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Am I human? Sometimes I wonder.

I always thought there was something more. Some miracle. Some story behind the door of my existence. Yet now, it seems to be slipping away.

Together with my mind. Together with my soul. Together with me.

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What is the point? I have no magic in me anymore.
I am tired. Withered. Worn. Burnt. Spent.

Enough. Please.

Guilt.

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These words.

These words are my light, my salvation, my purging of sorrows.

Another day. I live.

–  V

I believe

8 Dec

I believe in a world without strangers,
I believe in a world with no borders,
I believe in friends who are neighbours,
I believe in love holding hands with labour.

I believe in truth without lies,
I believe in faith with no disguise,
I believe in men and women,
I believe in age and wisdom.

I believe in imagination and children,
I believe in planting a garden,
I believe in loving with your heart wide open,
I believe in mind consuming passion.

I believe in dreams and work,
I believe in sentences and words,
I believe in positivity inside,
I believe sometimes we all hide.

I believe to look is not to feel,
I believe that in time we all see what is real,
I believe you are I and I am me,
I believe that we all guilty.

I believe you’re okay, breathe and count to 3,
I believe it’s part of learning to be free,
I believe we fall down to ask why,
I believe it’s okay for the strong ones to cry.

I believe tears do not mean defeat,
I believe in standing on your own two feet,
I believe in the end it all comes full circle,
Love death life is always a riddle.

I believe it wouldn’t be fun without,
Why else would we be allowed to scream and shout,
I believe in keeping the dream alive,
I believe you feel what you feel inside,
Don’t question, just try.

I believe that humanity is just a word,
We are all family and that cannot be disturbed,
I believe in the here and now,
I believe in seconds not hours.

I believe that things are as they should be,
I believe a smile can cure anything,
If it’s truly from you to me.