Archive | December, 2014


31 Dec


I feel myself floating,

A change is in the air,

Is a flower blooming?

I hear the song of nature,

She is infinitely soothing. 


It has been a year of personal growth,

Of Dark Sides and Mistakes,

And forgotten oaths,

Of Trust and Regaining Faith,

Of Love and Truth,

And making it right, before its too late. 


It was a process,

Breaking Free from chains in my mind,

I still bear the bleeding scars,

They burst open from time to time.


We shall see for now,

Where this story goes,

What the future holds,

No one really knows.


The time is at hand, 

Chin up, I stand,

I have my faith,

These past experiences I will try not to waste. 


Happy New Year to you, dear reader.

Where ever you are and whatever you have gone through this past year in 2014, be it good or bad, trust that everything happens for a reason and you’re a champion for having gone through it.

I wish you a beautiful fresh new start and a blessed 2015 filled with Love, Joy, Health and Good Food.

Much Love,




30 Dec

In my mind, I am on a ride.

Infinite possibilities ahead,

Though secretly I just want to hide.


I feel you, slowly slipping away,

I feel us drifting,

Mismatched chess pieces,

Pushing, pulling,

Silently falling.


This little voice inside is screaming, whispering,

Secret thoughts, Hidden desires,

Scheming, Fleeting,

Glimpses of passion’s fire in shadow,

Hollow, Numb, Beautifully wrapped sorrow.


I thought I climbed that big old hill,

Though it seems to be a dream, brought on by a pill,

The feverish longing to go is consuming me still,

My brain is awake yet my heart seems to be chilled.


– V


26 Dec

Sometimes I feel so constantly torn,
Whats right? Whats wrong?
Where do I belong?

I fight the fire,
I hide from the rain,
I feel the the burn,
I swallow the pain.

What makes us human?
A desire to forgive?
Sometimes I wonder, if it truly exists.


16 Dec


Distracting the mind is an endless game,

Round and round and round we play,

Twisting, turning, dodging the guilt,

Chin up, chest out, never retreat.


What happens when the thread unravels?

When truth and lies meet on the same level.

Where do we go, Where do we travel?

The mysterious mind, hidden behind shiny apparel.


– V

Behind the Shadows

14 Dec


It is silent, a supposed friend in the shadows.

Darkness disguised by light.

It lurks behind the curtain, surfacing ever so often to make sure it’s grip around my heart and mind is still exists. It squeezes a little, feeling my breath shorten, my nerves pulsate, my lungs struggle to live…to survive another day.


“I’m still here, my love. Forever and always I am a part of you.”

“No, you are but a demon in disguise. A shadow of my past. Goodbye.”



I fall down again.

Down this tunnel of self-deprecation. Of pain. Of hate.

Of trying to pull myself to the surface but failing.

Of trying to break free of this whirlpool of shadows that clings on and pulls.

It happens time and time again.

I am so tired.


“Be beautiful. Cover up.”

“Speak your mind. Do not be out of line.”

“Family before friends. Friends before family.”


Enough. Please.


I feel like I am always in the wrong. Always.

There is never something right that I am doing.

Positivity is a lie. Beauty is a lie. I am my name. Illusion.

I am dying inside. Innocence lost. Time running out.



Poisonous words engulfed in love running through my veins.

“Do not take this to heart. You may hate me. Think about it.”


Obligations. Truth. Half-lies. Disguises. Smiles.
Thoughts. Expectations. Love. Success. Failure. Tears.

I am far from perfect. This I know.


Am I human? Sometimes I wonder.

I always thought there was something more. Some miracle. Some story behind the door of my existence. Yet now, it seems to be slipping away.

Together with my mind. Together with my soul. Together with me.


What is the point? I have no magic in me anymore.
I am tired. Withered. Worn. Burnt. Spent.

Enough. Please.



These words.

These words are my light, my salvation, my purging of sorrows.

Another day. I live.

–  V

Dark Moments

11 Dec

It is the rampant disease of mindless chaos that ruins lives.

The endless screaming of souls being lost to greed that never seems to cease.

Rushing, running, questioning and hiding, we all take turns.

Shadows at play in the light.

Wingless birds dreaming of taking flight.


What is it that we are fighting for?

As tendrils of thick, wet, soggy darkness enclose around us,

What is it that keeps us moving towards the light?

Or is it just darkness, beautifully disguised?


Is what we are merely an illusion of being?

Are we dancers on strings play acting the lives we are living?

At this point in our existence, it isn’t too far fetched to say the mirror lies.

That around the world, in the higher corners of the land, nobody truly cries.

That good and evil have mixed and mingled.

That truth and justice are coloured by lies on the surface.


What is real?

You tell me.

– V

I believe

8 Dec

I believe in a world without strangers,
I believe in a world with no borders,
I believe in friends who are neighbours,
I believe in love holding hands with labour.

I believe in truth without lies,
I believe in faith with no disguise,
I believe in men and women,
I believe in age and wisdom.

I believe in imagination and children,
I believe in planting a garden,
I believe in loving with your heart wide open,
I believe in mind consuming passion.

I believe in dreams and work,
I believe in sentences and words,
I believe in positivity inside,
I believe sometimes we all hide.

I believe to look is not to feel,
I believe that in time we all see what is real,
I believe you are I and I am me,
I believe that we all guilty.

I believe you’re okay, breathe and count to 3,
I believe it’s part of learning to be free,
I believe we fall down to ask why,
I believe it’s okay for the strong ones to cry.

I believe tears do not mean defeat,
I believe in standing on your own two feet,
I believe in the end it all comes full circle,
Love death life is always a riddle.

I believe it wouldn’t be fun without,
Why else would we be allowed to scream and shout,
I believe in keeping the dream alive,
I believe you feel what you feel inside,
Don’t question, just try.

I believe that humanity is just a word,
We are all family and that cannot be disturbed,
I believe in the here and now,
I believe in seconds not hours.

I believe that things are as they should be,
I believe a smile can cure anything,
If it’s truly from you to me.